Here I go full force!!!!

Ok so after a really really REALLY bad week of just whatever...being depressed and having a hard time I've decied and come to terms that I know it's going to take a little time to get this weight off, and I'm ok with that. I'm going to go full force! I'm putting EVERYTHING I have in this!! I am going to lose this weight. Not for dh, not for kids, not for friends....but for ME!!!! I want this!!! I just have to say thanks to all my pals! You girls are awesome!!!! (I posted this on my slim in six group) I had a night out without kids last night and come home and bawled my eyes out. I spent a lot of night just thinking and crying. I was doing this all for the wrong reasons, not for me at all. This is now about me and for me...and I"m not giving up till I am a winner!!!!! So here we go, starting a new week with a bang!!! Thanks again girls!!!!

Tag...hmm

This is the first time I've ever been "tagged", but I'm game. :) Me too Sarah!

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The tagged victim lists 8 different points of their perfect partner & give the gender. In order to avoid the meme curse I must tag 8 victims (they would be listed at the bottom of this post) to join this game & leave a comment on a post letting them know they've been tagged. I guess that I can post this here and on my other blog???

Gender~ Male

1- Knows where his priorities are. NOTHING comes before family. Period.

2- Family man. Love to play with his kids and isn't afraid of looking stupid.

3- Listens. Not just nodding to show you're listening, really looking at the other person.

4- Has great arms, and other body parts. ;)

5- Loves me for me. Doesn't really care what I look like. Just having me is enough.

6- Supports me in EVERYTHING. Family, friends, life choices, everything.

7- Knows when I'm needing to talk and helps me out. Is always there no matter what.

8- Knows that even if I say yeah go I might not mean it. Knows how to read me.

Hmm let's see I don't know many people on here....I'm going to post this on my other blog...So here's the "victims" sorry guys!

Bryan
Lisa
Lisa
Greg
Huck
Leloh|the|great
Kelz
Danielle

How does that work out??

Ok so I went to the gym today, first time since last monday! YAY! It was such a GREAT workout!!!! Anyways I get there and decieded I'd weigh myself...so I step on with shoes on and it says I lost 3 lbs...I think YAY! So I take off my shoes and weigh without shoes and what does it show??? That I gained a lb! I'm like what the crap!? So I go workout and then come back and do the same thing and it shows the same thing...lost 3lbs with shoes on and gained one with shoes off....I'm trying to figure out how that works out??? Got me baffled! I mean what the freak?! That's so messed up!!! LOL. I just can't figure it out. Oh well, I"m going with shoes on! LOL!!!

So my workouts have been awesome. I started with barely being able to walk on the treadmill at a low speed for 30 mins. I've worked up to running. I started with just a few seconds and today I ran for....drum roll please.....2 mins!!!! And I even went 3 once cause I lost track of time!!!! I was like holy crap!!! GO ME GO ME!!!! That's just aweomse to me! I wasn't out of breath as I thought I would be. It just made my day!!! Anyways I'm off to play with kids just had to post that! I'm going to re-weigh tomorrow at the gym and see if its the same....

Till next time!

Well this week sucked!

Well with me being sick I haven't been to the gym but once this week. I wanted to go but just didn't feel up to it. I'm hoping next week will be different. I have been doing better at watching my calories but it seems even with me watching them I'm always SO hungry!!! I don't know if I'm not just eating the right things to help me be full or what. OH well. I'm doing good on water too. Just need to get that exercising in! Next week should be better. I'm hoping to go everyday next week! Maybe *try* the 2 hour workouts. I just don't want to over do it where I'm still recovering....well I need to go and get breakfast!! I'm STARVING!!!!

Till next time.....

I hate being sick!

Well if you read my other blog you would know I don't feel good. I thought I'd post a little more on here. I just feel like crap today. Kids shared their little cold. UGH! I don't feel like exercising at all I just feel like taking a nap! Maybe I've been working out too much? NAH, I don't think that is it. I just think I need to rest maybe....I don't know. I don't want to workout but I don't want to miss a workout! LOL....I just feel so tired today...I think I'll do a little something, does house work count? Well I hope so cause I've done A LOT today...speaking of that laundry is done again! Dang has it been 99 mins!?

Till next time!

My goals this week...

Well I wasn't able to get my sister to take my kids. She thinks me working out so much and watching my calories..or cutting them is just silly. It really upset me when she was like this is stupid. Oh well. She's not the one with the health problems. I'm hoping to maybe get a couple of 2 hour workouts in. The kids can be in the day care for up to 3 hours. I'm not sure if I can but I'd like to try the 2 hour workouts. Maybe if I can't get them in I'll do more at home. I'm going to try and drink more water. Maybe we'll see the scale move. Well I'm off to bed, with all the other things I'd like to do with my weightloss I'm going to *try* and get at least 8 hours of sleep! HA! I know sounds silly but anything's possible right?

Well so far so good, so why won't the scale move?

Ok I've been doing really well. Staying within my calories and getting exercise in, so why won't that darn scale move? I worked out really hard yesturday and it felt SO good! So this is what I know for sure. 1- I'm so addicted to the internet and blogging and 2- I LOVE LOVE LOVE to go to the gym!!!!!! So you'd think that would work in my favor right? It's really starting to bother me. I know I know muscle weighs more than fat...blah blah blah....and I am losing inches cause I'm in a size 18 when I started I was size 24....but still it doesn't LOOK like I'm losing weight....just don't know...what gives ya know? Oh well I'm hoping to talking my sister in taking my kids so I can go workout for an hour today...we're going shopping and I really REALLY want to get my workout in!!! Well off to dress kids!

First post.....

Well here we go I now have 3 different places I blog at. Although one I don't really use. I'll use this one just for my weightloss. Just to vent and get all those feelings out.....So I got my workout in today. 1 hour of good cardio. It was so nice. I really do enjoy going to the gym. I just wish the scale would should it too! LOL Well I'm off Tara is crying...till next time!